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Curiosity and Your Faith Crisis

 

To realize your true nature, you must wait for the right moment and the right conditions. When the time comes, you are awakened as if from a dream. You understand that what you have found is your own and doesn't come from anywhere outside. ~Buddhist Sutra

The right moment and the right conditions have aligned.

How do we know this?

Because you are staring your faith crisis square in the eyes. It is real and it is happening. Breath.

When I was in the early stages of my faith crisis ~ awakening, I remember asking why, a lot.

My name on the forum New Order Mormon was Wondering Why. New Order Mormon felt like a very safe place for me because everyone had an avatar and a name, like mine, and it was annoymous. I was so scared that people would find out I was asking questions and studying "anti mormon literature" that the NOM forum helped me feel not so scared. Back in 2006 I was talking with many of the well known post mormons, as some of them were using their real names. {{scary}} ;)

My point is that when this happens to you, you feel like you have just woken up from a dream, like the above quote mentions. It really does feel like that. Then, you have a million thoughts running through your head that try and make you feel guilt or shame about just wanting to find the truth. Those are two feelings that never help, ever never.

When you can sit with your new discoveries and realize that this is all happening in perfect time for you and you give yourself permission to follow your own path upon this journey, shift your thinking from thoughts about confusion, guilt, fear to thoughts of curiosity, this whole process will go so much better for you.

It is all in your head anyway, you get to choose the thoughts that will for sure come along for the ride.

Be curious. Stay in that frame of mind. 

What does curiosity feel like?

Easier. Not as heavy. Not a burden.

Ahhhh, doesn't that feel better.

Follow the curiosity and see where it goes.

Amy

Middle of a Mormon Faith Crisis? Now what?

Mormon Faith Crisis ~ Now What?

You have found yourself in the middle of a Mormon Faith Crisis. A place that you never even knew could happen to you.

You are sitting there on your couch, or bed, or kitchen table, you are looking around your house that used to feel perfect and right (for the most part). You just finished a big cry and now you are just sitting there looking and not quite sure what the future holds. You feel empty and void of all the emotions that just spilled out of you.

The house you are still staring at, blankly, represents all that you knew. All that you wanted for you family. All that you planned for. And now, you know that life is not going to be the same again.

There are conversations that have to happen.

There are feelings that have to be felt.

There are relationships that may change.

There are stories that now have different endings.

What are you going to do?

{{{Breathe.}}

Know that you will make it through.

You will stand on solid footing again, even if it may look completely different than it does in this moment.

How do I know this? Because I have been there. I have stared with new eyes, at everything I had created for my life and felt empty and scared.

Have things changed? 

Yes. 

Life is different than it used to be.

I really do believe that the experience of a Faith Crisis is wonderful and perfect, in all of it's imperfections.

Cry it out when you need to. Suck it up when you have to.

Get through it.

You will experience a wide variety of emotions.

Remember that emotions are just feelings and feelings will not kill you.

Let the feelings come and go, ebb and flow.

And then, when you are ready to no longer be in limbo. When you are ready to look at life as it falls around you. When you are ready to step into your new way of being, but you need a little help, a little nudge. Message me.

You will get through this and I am here to help.

You are just becoming who you were meant to be. It is perfectly unfolding.

Let it be messy for a time. It is all part of the rebuilding.

You are loved.

Amy xoxo

amyloganlife@gmail.com